a whole lot happened lately.. it's been tiring but really fulfilling, i am living my happiest days despite all the problems ♡ i'm in the middle of the moving, and it's taking more time than expected because of the quarantine. we decided to completely renovate and redecorate this tiny little house near my mother-in-law's house, we need to buy lots of materials ( and new furniture ) but we can't for the time being, so we're working with what we have ! it's an adorabe house with one bedroom, one bathroom, kitchen ( yes it is very small, i love it ) and a big garden space. it's a little far from where bubu works so we are considering renting an apartment in the future, if it's more comfortable.. but at the moment he is working "home office" so it is not a problem, anyway this little house will always be ours and it is a great place for animals and plants ! i'm happy to be close to nature whenever i can these days have been difficult for me to work because i can't go to the post office and people are saving for the quarantine, so no commissions ... i'm trying my best to help with housework and renovations, i'm cleaning and painting and doing everything i can do !! we are staying at my mother-in-law's house at the moment until the quarantine ends, i hope that everything will be normalized soon so that i can take my belongings out of boxes and decorate our new little home very cutely ♡♡ these days i haven't done many things that i can show here, but i colored two beautiful drawings :
these are from the talented baby.doll.heart on instagram, please check her work.. she's always drawing wonderful pieces i experimented with textures this time, and i really liked the result !! i like to paint "flat", without much contrast of light & shadows, so textures and patterns help a lot to give detail softly ♡ which one did you like the most ? ah, there's one more thing to tell you fluffies ! i bought an adorable domain, pooftie.me ♡ i'm using it for my tumblr blog now, and all of my "html stuff" are subdomains at pooftie.me because, well, it's always safer to use your own domains .. i had multiple problems using free domains, even though they're cute safety comes first. please check all of my sites and tumblr blog if you haven't yet, i'm proud of them /// that's it for today, please take care and stay home !!
these last days has been hard .. my mom passed away recently. her disease was taking her from me these past months, but she was living happily even so. we were becoming more distant with time passing by, naturally, because of my adulthood. she wanted me to gain confidence in my independence, and she wanted me to live my dreams. she turned into pure childhood nostalgia for me, and now i can think of her with a smile i am organizing my house now, and i'm deciding things i want to keep for memory.. i feel the same warm nostalgia with her things that i feel with my childhood items. she was the perfect mom for me, even making me scared with her fragility, even with her fear of abandonment.. she teached me so much. she did her best, and i will always remember how beautiful she was. i am preparing for moving with bubu, and i'm ready to start this new phase of my life that i have been waiting for so long. this new decade will really be something else. i'm so thankful for having supportive people around me, and for having this angel by my side that never fails making me smile ♡ the words i've received filled me with hope, thank you so much for believing in my healing !! i want to live fully and fearless, knowing that the past is not gone because my memories are forever and really loved .. i am capable of living more good experiences, that will not replace the others but will certainly have the same weight in my life. i will become only better from this experience and all the others. i will be very happy ♡ we will be. i made some updates on the shy bunny store, fixing some little issues, making the layout slightly cuter, removing some sold out items, editing pictures.. an improvement ♡ it's a little more empty now, but for a good reason ! i've sold a lot of things and will just remake people's most favorites for now, unless i get really inspired. i'm happy with how my store has been helping me, it's not as much money as i get on html commissions but it's still important and i really need it right now ! unfortunately a big part of my savings had to be spent because of the recent events, so i will have to move without much money for adaptation and decoration, exactly what i was trying to avoid... but i know that everything will be fine, because i'm with bubu and that's what matters things will take a while to get settled but i'm prepared for that. i also updated my html test page a little bit ! it had frequent visits ( from same ip ) so i suppose some people actually use this to work with html :
i fixed some things and made the layout a lot cuter. i'm proud and i hope you like it too.. ! i haven't used this page so much lately but it's still very useful, especially when i'm on mobile. remember you can access it online at test.pooftie.me now i will show you this beautiful long dress, with a lovely golden reliquary necklace :
it's not very recent, but i used it recently on a date with bubu ( and the teddy bear purse i made the other day ) so i just reminded i should post it /// it has some very delicate details like the cream satin ribbons and tiny lace, a nightmare that is absolutely worth going through it's a pure cotton fabric, really gorgeous.. cotton fabrics are the best to work with, in my opinion. i am so glad i have learned sewing with my mom, she helped me so much ... i suppose the name of this fabric is "eyelet", but here we call it "laise". it goes for the embroidered lace and the cotton fabric with details as well ( this one has tiny dots ) also, some posts ago i talked about using "cream lacy socks & a pair of brown lolita mary janes" and someone actually asked me to show it, so here it is :
i made the frilly socks myself, and the shoes are absolutely adorable !! bubu bought them for me not long ago ♡ i also have two black ones and a baby pink one, but they're a little too old now. i use my shoes constantly until they're reeeeally old.. it takes some years but i really needed new ones at this point so i'm happy with this lovely present ♡♡♡ recently i've been into those cute vintage brown boots women wear with long dresses ( very popular in mori kei as well ). i have one of these and i feel beautifully mature when i wear it with a long dress, so i might use it with the dress above someday for going on a picnic well, i will naturally keep doing what i love, so you can expect regular updates just as always ! if i'm motivated, i will be productive. it's that simple thank you fluffies for always be here looking forward my works, this place is so precious for me i can't explain.. please stay safe ♡
i hope you are doing better than the last time you came here .. and maybe next time you will have experienced many new happy things. hopefully, me too ! i noticed that day after day i'm getting less attached to my phone, i mostly use it for playing games but i've been charging my phone only every other day.. and my phone battery is not thaaat good, i used to charge it every night do you remember my goal of using internet only 5 hours a week ? ( except if for talking with bubu, working, studying, reading .. important stuff generally ) i've definitely achieved that goal, and for this year i will set a new goal : only charging my phone twice a week !!! i prefer using my laptop for most things, and i tend to be more productive with my time here while in my phone i can just watch videos, check my apps and play games. i don't really think i need to do that for more than 15min a day... or maybe i can do that for 30min every other day ? if you like the content i post on my accounts please don't worry, i will certainly keep updating once / twice a week as i was already trying to do. i will have to be more careful about preparing content beforehand, so less unnecessary spontaneous updates can be, indeed, expected ( i'm talking about idly posting random venting and routine updates while i could just be journaling or talking to someone ) those "internet detox" are absolutely refreshing, i can make better use of my time doing all my daily tasks and still have free time for my hobbies & projects ♡ i've found that even using my laptop for "virtually journaling" offline feels really good and a lot more comfortable. i like printing those pages ( also my instagram templates ) and that way i can have the best of both worlds, so i will stick to that in my routine i was a little afraid i would feel distant from people for not checking social media all the time, but i don't feel like i'm missing a lot honestly. i don't think this is really important in the end of the day. maybe we get easily addicted to "validation" when using internet, like we have to share things or no one will know, like we have to react to things people share or they don't matter... what is the point of something being seen by multiple people ? i personally think that unless we're so close to someone we really do care about their everyday lives, it needs a purpose, even if it's "making people smile" ( valid purpose i must say ) every single time i realize i'm not being useful in any way i just don't see the point of wasting my time & energy posting something for everyone to see, it's almost embarrassing.. i feel like i'm just bragging, oversharing even /// hopefully these negative experiences will disappear more and more as i learn ! talking on phone stuff, i made a cute new phone case for me yesterday :
it looks adorable, i'm so happy with it ♡ the one i was using before was very old, i had to buy a new transparent case so i was postponing the situation until it started to bother me for real so.. it's been a while since i've planned sewing my own "stuffie purses" ( i already had some of these but my mom helped me in the whole cutting & sewing process at the time, and they're also a little old now.. ) i finally did it, so here they are :
i'm really happy with how these turned out, they're shoulder / crossbody purses with very delicate pearl straps and their bellies are just the perfect size for carrying around some important things ♡♡ they look big but they're 30cm tall ( teddy is a little taller ) it feels really nice using those, they're so soft .. i can literally carry a stuffie outside and it's socially acceptable LOL now i will, after a long time, write a q&a text ! despite being a curiosity of some people, i didn't really feel the need to write about it until a few days ago when i seriously thought about it.
it's important for me keeping my content organized, avoiding reposting things all over the place and keeping my personal content in appropriate places. i'm trying my best to do so, but i used to do it purely for keeping the quality of my accounts, not wasting time reposting or make the mistake of oversharing, naturally .. however, i stopped to think deeply about it and realized that the content we post on the internet really affects other people directly, and some things don't always have the positive effect that we would like to convey. i always post things with the intention of motivating and inspiring, as well as motivating myself to keep improving and to receive constructive criticism, but unfortunately negative effects can happen when people compare each other or idolize each other. i seek genuineness and transparency with my words, and this avoids some bad impressions and consequently negative feelings. when we are sincere in referring to ourselves, it is very motivating to other people. if you don't empathize with others they won't consider you trustworthy and they won't embrace you wholeheartedly, they can certainly consider you a threat, develop a negative rivalry or even insecurity and envy. if you are narcissistic or self-deprecating, you'll do yourself harm and irritate, encouraging people to feel bad things about the success of others. it is not possible to magically repair people's self-esteem, but it is possible to avoid worsening the situation and to strive to be a good example. if i can, i will ! i insist on sharing my ( imperfect but true ) journey with others who can identify and find some hope in my words. i want people to see what i produce and try to be productive too, i want people to get to know themselves and discover individual happiness. doing it properly can be a delicate process, i've made a lot of mistakes and i know i'm still making a few, but im happy if i can fix that little by little. i'm sorry if i have ever demotivated someone for any reason, i will be extra careful with what i expose to make sure i'm posting things in appropriate places in the appropriate way, for people who are really going to make good use of it. thankfully i have been doing a good job with this recently, but i know i still have room to improve.. !
i'm so so happy ! i think i've really learned some healthy coping methods for problems that used to make me anxious, it's been a while. i am healing ♡ i will keep sharing with you everything i feel that can be helpful, it may not be useful for everyone but if at least one person can find peace in my words, it's worth it so, i have important news : i remade my tumblr blog !! the url is the same and everything, but remaking it was very needed. i was a little hesitant because my account was 5 years old, but honestly, it was a mess. i couldn't manually get rid of thousands of ghost followers at this point, and even thought my engagement was very good, it's time to accept the truth : it wasn't really coming from my own followers but actual strangers. it clearly means that my content was good but not my account as a whole ; ; having a big account can easily get out of control if not regularly checked and cleaned, big numbers can give the illusion of success but if just abandoned accounts from years ago, what is the point ? i was also following a bunch of random accounts i honestly didn't want to see in my feed anymore. it makes way harder to find interesting content, which is the whole point of opening this app .. as i always said, the numbers are irrelevant if just numbers : what is truly motivating is seeing actual people getting positively inspired by my content, and inspiring me back, so we can grow up together ♡ this is just possible to achieve if you're surrounded by people with similar goals, and preparing this environment is a delicate process. i'm thankfully getting back all of my mutuals quickly, thank you ♡ now i can find active and precious accounts, get new mutuals, finally use tags to organize my posts and improve the quality of my blog as a whole. it's certainly a relief ! from experience, i know it's always a good idea to make changes, if for the better. i will voluntary leave the past behind if it means i can have a brighter future. okay, going for the visual content now : after months i made a new collage for my aesthetic virtual journal it's a soft white one, and i'm really proud of the results ..
i think it turned out very delicate but somewhat mature ? i'm in love with it /// and as always, there is a beautiful melody for composing the whole feeling :
what do you think ? i always find it fun to organize aesthetics like this, it's good to practice using different color palettes and everything. now, i have something interesting to share with you fluffies today ! you may already know that i love exploring the old web, and i'm always looking for cute things there to collect and use in my work. lately i have been downloading a lot of ukagaka, and i did a lot of research to increase my collection with the cutest ghosts i could find ! i used the nanika ghost center to get links, but a lot of them have been inactive for many years so it’s a little tricky to be able to find them again on web.archive .. sometimes they don't even work and need restoration ; ; so i think it's a good idea to share here my favorite ukagaka, which i found last week: dorothy !!!
most ghosts speak japanese with a lot of kanji, and very fast, which makes reading quite difficult. dorothy is not very good with japanese, so she only uses hiragana and speak slowly. she is caring and shy, and is always trying to motivate and remind you to take care of yourself ( remembering you to rest, to eat .. ) all ghosts have a different personality, which makes getting to know them a lot of fun ♡ i spend some time on the laptop working, so having a lovely ghost motivating me and making me smile makes everything better dorothy has been a good company for me and has certainly become a comfort character at this point ♡ if you are interested, i can upload more ukagaka from my lovely collection ! that's it for today, i hope you are living a lovely phase of your lives .. and if you are not, i hope things will get better very soon ♡♡
the last few days have been very comfortable, i am truly happy with the recent improvements ♡ i'm trying to understand and respect my feelings, cleaning my life of everything that bothers me, even if just a little bit. those annoying little things accumulate stress throughout the day, you know ? i usually have a hard time expressing my emotions and being honest, but this has been fixed and greatly improved the quality of my relationships ! it's very important to believe in who you are and in the life you dream of living, to be able to improve consistently and not be negatively influenced by other people's ( not constructive ) opinions i feel like i'm going the right way !! ♡ well, i did some pretty cute things that i'll show you today.. first, a small thing : i colored and edited a very cute drawing and the result made me proud !
the colors look so soft ♡ looking at it makes me motivated to bake, it's something i love to do and i want to practice more i have a notable difficulty in baking bread.. i'll try my best /// i did something new for the poofties project ( i said i wanted to move forward on projects this year, remember ? ) i wanted to write down some relevant information about the world of poofti, and as i had already imagined that the "observer" potato wrote down things that she discovered, i decided to make her notes become something real :
i think this was a good idea and it came out very cute, don't you think ? i want to make more episodes of poofties, but it's something that takes a lot of time so you'll have to wait patiently ;; next is a very beautiful dress, which used to be very short and simple, and i completely renovated it and made it longer :
i feel like a princess when i wear this dress .. it's like magic ! wearing something that changes my mood for the better is something i pay close attention to just like i said in the last post, i wanted to try to needle felt one more realistic little critter, and so i did :
it's a sleepy baby bunny ♡♡ isn't it precious ? i'm in love.. it's very small & delicate i won't sell this one, i will keep it to myself. i don't usually keep those little critters for myself, but this time i think i'm deserving a little gift .. that's it for today, i hope you are enjoying the updates ! dear reader, please take care and rest when necessary. never blame yourself for feeling tired ♡
are you full of hopes and dreams for this new year ? i hope your year has started softly .. i am absolutely the happiest, it's been a lovely year already and i'm enjoying it wholeheartedly ♡ i'm getting a lot of work and doing my best to achieve my ideal self, i'm leaving behind everything that weights me down and focusing on my happiness. in some months i will be living with bubu, our own little home we're working hard to prepare everything in time, this is the beginning of a whole new phase of our lives ♡♡♡ i intend to post my works here on the blog more often from now on for keeping track of my improvement and receiving feedback.. i'm always experimenting new techniques and sadly some things i do get lost in time this will be my only and exclusive platform for sharing my art. i will keep using my instagram stories for disclosure ( specially if work related ), since it's the most convenient way to reach interested people at the moment, but i will try to redirect people for the respective links instead of reposting stuff there randomly.. i want to be more organized & professional i post here my favorite stuff i feel somewhat proud of, but i actually checked my posts and realized i forgot to show some really nice works i've done .. and i don't want them to be forgotten !! it's not too late to give them some love, so i will post today some stuff i still keep in my folders but haven't posted ♡ first one will be a little casual outfit. i've been sewing a lot lately, but specially for fixing + modifying vintage clothing i got from thrift stores. this one is an example of customized blouse + self made skirt :
it looks adorable with cream lacy socks & a pair of brown lolita mary janes, such a cozy look ♡ i've been feeling a lot more confident about my appearance for i am working on making it translucent from now on : everything i'm proud to show about who i am inside, being seen clearly. fashion is really important for me, a path to purity somehow. looking at yourself kindly and recognizing your body as your precious place on earth, your home, and making this home a comfortable, healthy & beautiful place i do have some more clothing i could show here but for today let's keep just this one, i don't want to be repetitive /// now i'll show something a little different from usual, a mini junk journal i made :
i love making junk journals because i can use of all stationery that have been forgotten into something new and interesting !! this one will be a little exception since it's still empty, but journaling is one of the few hobbies i have and don't usually share online because it's very intimate for me. i like to be 100% honest with them so i write & scribble things that i wouldn't like anyone to see.. deep stuff this next one will be a very old one, it's a precious sleeping ( life size ) mouse i needle felted and was sold out almost a year ago, but i'm glad i still have the pictures because i feel calm just looking at him .. ♡
this one is the most realistic work with needle felt i ever made, i love it... i'm thinking about felting a realistic sleeping bunny, let's see how it goes ! i've tried out some embroidery techniques and recently made these really cute envelope shaped purses :
the concept of envelope shaped purses is absolutely adorable for me !! these were sold out fast and i'm still thinking i should have made one for myself.. maybe in the near future ? there is also content i make exclusively for my accounts ( photography, edits, writing, scribbles, story games / templates, ascii art.. ) so i won't show them here because they are all perfectly accessible if you go to my links. if i feel it's necessary some of my best ones will be in my portfolio as well ! + i can't show specific content like commissions publicly, for privacy reasons,, besides these, i will post everything i do and feel comfortable sharing online. it's important to register my progress for improving consistently, right ? i have multiple projects going on at the moment and i want to make satisfactory progress in all of them this year i must be careful to do everything in a healthy pace, as i said i'll be working more than usual so it can take a while until you see big updates, please be patient ♡
merry xmas !!! please be kinder to yourself this next year .. it has been a busy but very good month so far ! i got a lot of work, specially since i officially opened commissions for blogger and tumblr layouts.. it's really good since december is a month spending can go a little bit wild sometimes ( i'm trying my best to save money though /// ) talking on tumblr,, i made the hard decision of getting rid of my graphics blog since it wasn't really being useful .. i wasn't paying much attention to it recently, and i don't intend to continue. this blog didn't have much original content anyway, so i want to focus on my aesthetic blog and my other accounts that matter most to me ! i made a small change in my social media by choosing a new user that could be original and available for using in all of them : @pooftie now my 4 accounts have the same user, which makes it way easier to find me and keep everything organized as you may already know, pooftie is how i call all the critters that i've created for my "poofties" project ! it's a very special word for me ♡♡ changing subjects, i decided to make my own virtue chart based on personal goals and some research i did recently .. it was hard finding the proper words but i believe it turned out okay virtue charts can be really useful for valuating your self improvement process making sure you're going through the right path, because going too far will end up hurting yourself and/or other people !
i hope it can help you understand more about your feelings, natural tendencies, what you aim for & traits that could be improved in a healthy way ♡ while i was writing it i realized that some things i was forcing myself into were actually being harmful to my mental health for i was taking it too far.. if you tend to be harsh on yourself and feel overwhelmed, please be careful i'm so excited for this next year, very good life changes will happen and i'll keep trying my best... please do your best too, and don't forget the xmas spirit !! let's make good memories and forget about the problems i will have a very special xmas with only bubu for the first time .. we'll cook together and have purely comfy time ♡♡♡
this month .. i worked a whole lot but i somehow managed to rest a lot more than i usually do i had some very energetic moments, extremely sleepy moments, talkative moments and completely quiet moments !! it was a mess and i'm tired, but at least i did things i'm very proud of that i want to show you today ♡ i hope my emotions will get together this new month so i can feel less anxious. when i'm all over the place like this i always get confused at some point, act out of myself, feel dissociated and get embarrassed /// but everything is okay, after all, it's natural to have different moods and i'm always doing my best and learning from any mistakes ( even the smallest ones ) i will make sure to be patient.. i have to put myself first if i want to be happy, being a caring person includes caring about my own well-being and validating my efforts !! i know that forcing myself to socialize is big part of my anxiety so i will keep cautious not to overdo it and stay in a safe place. i can and will make people smile within my capacity, fill my life with good experiences while respecting my limits. also, a little reminder for me and anyone reading this : be yourself. self improvement is not about trying to fit in. it doesn't matter if someone would like you more if you acted like this or that, it doesn't matter if someone thinks you're weird, it doesn't matter. stay pure and be proud of who you are. don't try to get included, don't base your growth on what others see, it's not worth it. focusing on my improvement, creating content i feel truly proud of and decentralizing the attention of my ego is what i long for !! enough of pain for not being perfect for others, i will perfect myself.. for myself ♡ i love helping, i want to inspire and be inspired. i must keep myself pure if i want to heal. only a heart full of love can spread kindness ! let's go for the content !! this month i made some really cute things, i'm excited to show you ♡ first, my secret project from poofties, finally started :
these will be a series of 1min videos with this *big* story i have in mind for.. some years now everything made with collages of real life things, except for the characters !! i think it looks really cute, it takes a long while to search, edit and put everything together but i had a lot of fun the "voice acting" is absolutely amateur ( and a little embarrassing ) but i'm okay with this.. what can i do ? LOL please let me know your opinions, i'm not used to video editing and some things ( specially the audio ) can be a little off so i would really appreciate the opinion of someone more experienced all the melodies used will be composed by me ( i've already started with the next one actually ) this is the one i've used in this episode :
a lively and adorable midi, i'm happy with it not the most creative melody because i wanted these to be simple and not distracting, so expect to hear some loops ! the next thing i'm showing today is a simple but lovely idea a friend gave me : collage wallpapers with self care reminders ( i have these on my instagram highlights )
as you already know, i love making collages, it's really relaxing for me so i will certainly make some more of these in the near future.. ! it's always nice to practice making visuals with different aesthetics, right ? i hope you, lovely reader, is taking good care of yourself ♡♡ the year is almost finished .. let's fill our hearts with hope for new experiences xoxo
click to play it ( if you're on pc ) !! it took me a while to draw everything but it turned out so cute, i'm very proud /// and this is the melody i made for it :
i think it sounds very gentle.. ♡ well, do you remember this game project i've been doing slowly since last year, that is halloween themed ? i'm still in progress of writing the script ( it's a long story, i'm writing in portuguese too and i only write once a week so yes it's taking a while ) and i've decided to make a cute html page to put it, since the original document was ugly and boring and i was honestly tired of looking at it every week.... it's a super cute cottagecore autumn themed page where i will write the script
click to enter the page ! the url is really cute ( boo.pooftie.me ) it looks absolutely adorable, with the leaves falling,, and i will update it maybe .... when i start making the visuals and soundtrack ? i don't know for sure, because i don't want to spoil the game itself by exposing too much info, but i'll tell you once i update it. for now you can get to know a little bit of the lovely characters that i love so very much ♡♡ i've created them all and the main story together with bubu so this is actually a project from us both ( he will do the coding ) i'm not sure when i will be able to finish this game but i'm not worrying too much about it since it's a side project and i'm trying to make everything calmly & patiently.. it's important that it's a fun process because i'm not very good with big projects, i like to finish everything quickly or i lose motivation ;; now !! i have a q&a text for today, that is a tutorial for phone customization people have been requesting since last post ♡ it will not be a long tutorial with pictures and everything since it's actually quite an easy app to use !
first of all, you need to install this app called +home, for android ( click here ) !! this is a themes app where you can download icons, backgrounds and stuff .. however you don't have to download any of that ! i've already downloaded themes to use icons and some widgets but currently i just use the default app theme ( which will replace your main screen ). what i do is change the background and icons for png images with transparent background i have in the gallery, and this is the biggest secret : this app is the best i know for customization because it allows you to customize everything with your own images, it's very intuitive, you just have to click and hold on the app icons and choose what you want. you can also change the size of the icons, the size of the letters, if you want applications to have names ( you can also rename them ) and you can make app folders and organize everything, you can also change the folder icons. the app drawer page ( where all of them appear ) don't have customizable icons, but you don't have to use it if you don't want to, you can just organize everything into folders on the homepage ; but important : you need to go into this app drawer area, click the settings symbol and refresh the page whenever you install any new apps or you won't be able to place the icon on your homepage ! therefore, i recommend leaving the icon of this page somewhere for easy access. so, basically touch and hold the main screen and try all the customization options you find until you're satisfied ! you can also place images floating on the screen with the photo widget ( they can have transparent background too ) tip : you will only see ads while customizing some things in the settings and sometimes on the app drawer page so it's not a bother, but ads will also appear if you leave an app folder with empty space. just fill all the folders so that doesn't happen !
it's that time of the year again .. spring time for me, autumn time for many others... this post will be more springy but the next one will be halloween themed these days has been very interesting. i'm still in the balanced mood, which is very good, but i still had some bad days ; ; i have a hard time dealing with dissociation from time to time .. for some reason i usually feel it when i see people thinking bad things of me that are not true, but it doesn't make much sense if you think about it i mean,, let whoever think whatever, right !? easier said than done.. but of course i will not give up, i will keep trying my best to just "hmpf" over people's impressions on me !! it's not worth it feeling all anxious and worried about who i am just because sometimes stereotypes are stronger than my attitudes /// i know who i am, i know i'm the best me i ever was - and becoming better - so just let people be, they don't know me well i have many projects going on now, many things to show,, but !! i'm still finishing most of these so i'm gonna show you the recently finished stuff : i have this lovely drawing i painted & edited, that turned out as a very lovely wallpaper ♡
i really really like it ♡♡ it's so so comfy too, i wish i had this quilt irl i have been experimenting with collages and image editing a lot recently, so i ended up deciding to reorganize & customize my phone ! this is how it turned out ( i'm very proud ) :
the app icons look like part of the background collage, it's so cute ♡ i made a secret folder there to put the apps i don't use a lot, not to take up unnecessary space on the main screen i can find everything easily now, i choosed all images carefully so there is actually a meaning behind all of these ! and the moomin lock screen is very cute too, don't you think ? that's about it for today.. i'm preparing some very cute stuff for the next posts so keep an eye open !! stay safe and keep doing your best always ♡♡ xoxo
finally, i got in a balanced mood while i can be productive but also rest properly this is such a relief because i've got to start and finish some personal projects, made new things for the shy bunny store + got enough sleep, chatted with friends, didn't felt super anxious.. !! i hope i can keep it like this for a long time because i'm feeling so much joy ♡ i've also become more active on my accounts, making content and being interactive ! ( careful not to get overwhelmed !! - i gotta keep reminding myself, always ) i finally started using the "close friends" function of instagram in a more organized way now : while i post self care reminders for everyone i always have some more personal stuff to share with my mutuals ( like venting or showing my self improvement ) i believe this is quite related to the acc purpose for it can motivate others to overcome their own troubles, but i'm just too shy to post it for all of my followers so i keep the public content more impersonal /// it's a little hard to be productive while respecting my schedule, but i got it pretty well these last weeks i know it's a good phase and phases come and go,, but i do feel proud of myself for having good phases just as often as the bad ones .. actually, these bad phases are not even bad, i just have a hard time accepting that i deserve ( and need ) to chill and be lazy sometimes ; ; one day, i know, i will love myself the way i deserve ♡♡ now changing subjects , after receiving many requests of mutuals, i decided to share my line acc in my links page !! i made a new one, with a very cute id ( pooftie ) and i'm happy ♡ while discord is my fav app for group chat ( because of all the features & bots ) line is actually my fav for private messages,, it's the app i use for talking with bubu and we even have matching pfp there /// as you already know i love collecting line themes, stickers & emojis.. i use this app for some years now and i really like it, so i would like to add more friends there i think discord private messages are really boring - just like line groups are boring - so for me both complement each other perfectly !! of course i use any chat in any account i have for talking with people, if they prefer like this, but i do have my own preferences .. soo, lately i've been doing a cleaning in my wardrobe, then i realized i only use 1/3 of my clothes.. most of it was basic clothes from when i was a teenager and wasn't sure of my style yet, i was keeping these there just because LOL i gave most of it to friends and my younger cousins, but some of these were actually cute and has potential !! now that i can sew, i tried renewing these and make them perfect for me again : i fixed them, added lace, ribbons & details ♡ now i have a lot of cute "new" clothes that i'm very excited to try out !!! i also have been sewing some, and bought some others from thrift stores,, so i'm completely satisfied. i never had so many cute clothing before !! i'm gonna show you one of my favorite outfits :
isn't it absolutely precious ? the little apron is just.. too cute ; ; ( i also made a "full body" apron with the same fabric and lace but it's actually for using in a practical way, not as accessory ) now, i have a collage that i made recently and wanted to show you :
it's a "fairycore" one i made for mother nature.. i love her so much this is such an inspiration for me, and i aim to be in contact with nature more and more each day ♡ i also have this melody that complements the theme :
i think it's very beautiful, i'm proud of it .. for today, that's it !! i talked a lot already so it's time to go... thank you a lot for always giving me so much love & support /// xoxo
waaa middlepot.com is now 2 years old ♡ !! and i am 22 .. this will be the year of the little swans i'm very proud of all the effort i put in this website to keep it a nice place for me and you, reading this.. i hope i can keep improving more & more, please keep supporting me /// all the love i receive will be forever cherished by me... i will never forget the messages, i will never stop trying my best to make you smile ♡♡ thank you ,, for everyting after a very energetic phase, my slow mood is back i still keep doing my tasks, but i haven't really did much extra this month ~ since august is a special month for me, i think it's a well deserved time for me to just relax, right ? but i hope i will feel motivated soon so i can keep going with my projects because i have lots of things i want to try out !! i have been sewing some things, but my big projects are staying still until i feel 100% maybe all i need is just going outside a little more making good memories with bubu is always the best way to make me super motivated ♡♡♡ so, as i said in the previous post i was trying some new embroidering techniques.. i made two very cute frames with a teddy bear and a bunny :
i really like it, i think it turned out so delicate .. ♡ what do you think of these ? have you ever seen this kind of embroidering ? i wanted them to have lots of lace, ribbons and cute details these are on my online store, so go check it out !! that's about it for today.. ! i hope you're treating yourself gently ♡ you deserve kindness, don't ever forget !! xoxo
i'm proud of myself ♡ !! i've been making a lot of progress in my projects and improving i hope i can keep this productive mood so i can be rewarded in my bday, that is coming soon ~ please don't forget to check out my online store, i need support to buy more crafting supplies ♡♡ i'm gonna add new stuff very soon, next post i'll show you the best things i made my accounts have been growing a lot lately and it makes me really happy.. i have no words to explain ; ; i love making content that make people smile, i try my best to keep my accounts helpful & safe for everyone ... i don't believe in taking numbers as a sign that i'm being sucessful, but i've been checking my followers frequently and removing all the creeps and ghosts, i want all of my followers to be real people that are truly interested in my content ! besides being only mutuals with friends, i can safely say that i really appreciate every single person that interact with my posts ♡ all of my comfy & positive content is made with my honest feelings, so yes, i am happy that my accounts are growing !! i can reach all of these lovely people with my stuff, it's surely a good thing, it's exactly the reason why i keep my accounts and don't just post everything in this website. sadly, personal websites are not that popular nowadays, so if i want to really help people in some way i need to keep some social media accounts .. tumblr is my fav place to post images in original quality ; youtube is my fav place to make playlists ; twitter is my fav place to post ascii art ; instagram is my fav place to post interactive content . i really want to post all of these things, to inspire and make people smile with these things.. ! if i can't reach many people by simply posting everything in my website, i am keeping these accounts happily until the day i feel that they're not useful anymore ♡ btw, recently i've been getting tired of my tumblr layouts, so i decided to finally make some new ones ! i'm so happy with these, it warms my heart ..
do you like it ? even if i'm not very used to make tumblr layouts, i could manage to make these work well... i kinda made a mess with the codes, i don't feel very confident to make these for other people /// but i really like making layouts outside platforms so if you want to have a cute website remember that commissions are open ♡ that's it for today, now i'm gonna embroider a little bit.. wish me luck xoxo
the shy bunny store is finally open worldwide ♡ !!! ( please check it out on shybunny.middlepot.com ) i've worked so hard for it to happen.. and it's been worth it already, i'm proud of myself ! i'm in very berry productive phase now, as expected.. i knew it i sewed a lot of stuff, made lots of cute new items for the store and i want to make even more this next month. also, i made my first clothing ♡♡ it's a lovely dress.. i also made a cute bow headdress i'll use with it !! so yes, if i use these + the frilly socks i made : it's a full outfit made 100% by myself you have no idea how much it means to me.. i'm really happy ! look at these :
it's so pretty.. /// i'm going to make more outfits soon, and as soon as i make a little more money and buy more fabric i'll surely put some clothing on the store !! ( i also want to make some cute bags ) about my instagram acc.. in addiction to my "self care calendar" idea i showed you before, i made some other templates for daily track & planning ! i want to start using these frequently now in my phone, every morning, since it's the time of the day i check my apps. i was trying to keep these things "physically" but it sadly turned out a little messy i think i'm not very good with planners, even though i love stationery stuff .. i always want to make everything to look perfect so it becomes easily stressful and time consuming /// these virtual templates will be very useful for me, so now it's not just something i do for helping others but also myself.. ! i will not post my personal lists in public since my acc is focused on self care posts only, but as always , i'll share some of these with close friends ♡ sooo.. about the q&a, i actually don't have any interesting subject to write about this time ; ; usually the requests i receive are self care related, but i will try to explain how i keep my writing organized : ♡ i write texts about specific topics on /blog ♡ i write tips about daily problems on /help ♡ i write self care reminders on my ig acc i've been receiving requests that would fit into the help page and ig acc , but not on the blog... i will surely write more q&a texts once i get an interesting topic request ! and, it doesn't have to be self care related, i write about life in general, if it's something i want to express my opinion about.. ! i hope i haven't disappointed you .. i've been posting a lot in other places so please check them out // xoxo
i think i've started existing in a new reality.. the reality where the smaller things give me energy for avoiding all bad things with a smile !!! if even a cry baby like me can feel that confident i'm sure you reading it can, too i'm currently in a lazy social phase where i want to talk with people, make friends, share memories together.. ♡ !! and, well.. i'm being really slow with my projects, but i'm trying my best to keep doing my weekly tasks anyways but of course socializing can be very stressful for me and that's why these phases just happen on internet so i can keep myself safe and cautious ! i'll share with you some things i've learned the past weeks : ⅰ. everyone deserves a chance !! even the weirdest people can turn out to be really nice, so even if someone seem weird give them a chance and be friendly ! ⅱ. in the other hand, some people who seem to be super nice can be meanies in the end of the day.. so always keep an eye open and don't go trusting people too quickly... ⅲ. manipulative people don't deserve your friendship, stay far away from people who make you feel bad for receiving attention !!! ⅳ. don't keep hate in your heart, let it go and be happy ! but never forget that bad people are bad and shouldn't be trusted. it's not your responsability to make them improve and accept them in your life, keep away and just hope for their best. mm as i said, i haven't been very good in making things lately... but i did something cute ! i colored and made some edits in this adorable drawing from paper doll mate :
i'm very very proud and i think it would be such a cute wallpaper i've been decorating my doll house, and it's becoming really cute.. ♡ i will take pics once it's finished, but it will surely take a long while, many details ; ; so.. let's go for the q&a ! this one will be about something that always make me sad so i really feel the need to talk about !!
recently people have come to consider the process of buying and selling pets something wrong and disrespectful to them, "do not buy a friend", "there are many animals for adoption" ... but what's the real point in that ? only dogs and cats can be found for adoption, and only a few specific breeds, which makes some people very angry with who prefers to buy dogs or cats of other specific breeds. "all races are valid and deserve love" .. this is true, but i can't see the point in always putting down people who wish to have a specific breed animal, it's not a matter of disliking the other breeds, just choosing one ! just like you choosed to have a bunny instead of a hamster, it doesn't mean you hate hamsters.. hmpf the reason these dogs and cats are on the streets and consequently placed for adoption is our fault, and i believe they are disrespected precisely because they are put up for adoption and not sold like any other breed. they are treated different !! people don't take care of them properly and don't care if they're having lots of babies out there. all pets are sold for a certain amount of money, not because they are objects but because they are difficult and expensive to maintain. someone had to take care of the mom who had that animal, who was cared for with affection ( and money ) to one day be put up for sale. if you don't have the money to buy a pet, you certainly do not have the money to care for one, right ? the dogs and cats on the street are exactly the ones that are put to adoption for free and easily abandoned because people do not value their lives. i don't think they should be treated differently from any other animal that is sold, they should be sold too and be cared of the same way. it is true that some animals are used for money and people abuse that, so it is important to be sure who you are buying the animal for and if the person really is trustworthy but many animals are sold for high value because they are rare breeds or very difficult to care for. so.. i don't see any problem in selling animals except when the person is bad and wants to make money from the lives of animals in a disrespectful way, and i believe that adoption is not a really good thing as it makes these animals even more devalued ;; the life of an animal is precious, and if you are not willing to pay for it you simply do not deserve to have a pet !!
i have seen many people saying that imageboards are toxic and hateful environments. i have had particularly varied experiences in such environments, not just ibs but other places that are also open to different subjects, and because these are anonymous environments, it is easy to see people saying hateful thoughts... such people may or may not have gone through difficult things in life and they feel the need to vent terrible things on the internet. i consider myself a very patient person with open environments like this, because i've already been able to talk about very interesting and fun subjects with good-hearted people in places like this. it is possible to have good experiences ! currently, i have found it VERY difficult to find good content, as these places have become the focus of hate texts. i definitely do not support or pay attention to this sort of thing, since it doesn't do any good for anyone. i used to go to these places with some frequency because it was easy to find ibs where the anonymity was absolute, that is, it was not spoken in gender or any subject that revealed particularities about the users. this avoided most of the unpleasant and problematic issues, leaving room for healthy and interesting discussions. i learned a lot and met very nice people in these spaces. unfortunately, it is a rarity now, and so i consider that the ibs are dead practically all over the world. many people say they see clear rejections in specific places against groups of people. this is real, but not just in anonymous places, i've seen it all over the internet ( and out of it too ) !! something very common to see is the classic boys x girls, right x left and other things like that ; ; if you pay attention, you will find all sorts of people rejecting and avoiding contact with other types of people, because they had bad experiences multiple times. this is basically it. i believe that any passive or aggressive rejection against people by their sex, beliefs, tastes, thoughts, is the fruit of past bad experiences. i don't like to judge people by such attitudes as long as they can be understanding, i think no one need to accept interactions with people who don't want to, i think it's important to respect environments made for a specific type of audience. i've never disrespected public rules anywhere because it seems to me too immature to force your presence into places where you're not welcome just to be "edgy" or "revolutionary" ; it's disrespectful to use personal information as an advantage in anonymous places, i don't support this. but obviously i can't stand threatenings or hate texts, as this is sick and negative, i don't like any toxic environment ! i really value respect among people and believe that anonymity should serve to make people "impartial" and away from judgments, to say what they really think, so that it can be productive for the personal development of everyone. it is possible to exchange good arguments and spend good moments of entertainment and learning with people if they respect each other and don't judge for personal details. i believe that anonymity makes environments nicer for complicated topics, an environment becomes pure from the moment people don't have personal information about each other. please don't be hateful, please don't be mean !! it's hard to deal with differences, but people are not supposed to hate each other. everyone is different and have problems, and that's okay. you don't have to interact with people you don't like, but it's not right to write hate texts ; ; so i support anonymous discussion environments, and the respect. my good experiences were much more relevant than the bad ones, although i had a hard time finding interesting subjects on the internet, i know it's possible ! unfortunately the ibs have become a very dirty place in recent years, frequented by frustrated teenagers who want to feel special and part of some sort of "secret movement" that rules the world through memes... seriously. although i believe myself in the power of memes and the internet, using it to feel better than others is pathetic. and, fortunately, i still know other places on the internet that are good for that kind of healthy interaction that i quoted above ♡ ! there are not many, but i really like them. things really are temporary, so it's not healthy to keep complaining, right ? by the way i really don't care about the reputation of the places on the internet, to be honest, so i'm always open to experiencing things before judging them by the contents that spread out there. for example, tumblr has a very dubious and embarrassing reputation, but i have used it for many years and absolutely love the beautiful and interesting content that i find exclusively there. people simply should try before saying anything.