click to play it ( if you're on pc ) !! it took me a while to draw everything but it turned out so cute, i'm very proud /// and this is the melody i made for it :
i think it sounds very gentle.. ♡ well, do you remember this game project i've been doing slowly since last year, that is halloween themed ? i'm still in progress of writing the script ( it's a long story, i'm writing in portuguese too and i only write once a week so yes it's taking a while ) and i've decided to make a cute html page to put it, since the original document was ugly and boring and i was honestly tired of looking at it every week.... it's a super cute cottagecore autumn themed page where i will write the script
click to enter the page ! the url is really cute ( pumpkin.shop.tm ) it looks absolutely adorable, with the leaves falling,, and i will update it maybe .... when i start making the visuals and soundtrack ? i don't know for sure, because i don't want to spoil the game itself by exposing too much info, but i'll tell you once i update it. for now you can get to know a little bit of the lovely characters that i love so very much ♡♡ i've created them all and the main story together with bubu so this is actually a project from us both ( he will do the coding ) i'm not sure when i will be able to finish this game but i'm not worrying too much about it since it's a side project and i'm trying to make everything calmly & patiently.. it's important that it's a fun process because i'm not very good with big projects, i like to finish everything quickly or i lose motivation ;; now !! i have a q&a text for today, that is a tutorial for phone customization people have been requesting since last post ♡ it will not be a long tutorial with pictures and everything since it's actually quite an easy app to use !
first of all, you need to install this app called +home, for android ( click here ) !! this is a themes app where you can download icons, backgrounds and stuff .. however you don't have to download any of that ! i've already downloaded themes to use icons and some widgets but currently i just use the default app theme ( which will replace your main screen ). what i do is change the background and icons for png images with transparent background i have in the gallery, and this is the biggest secret : this app is the best i know for customization because it allows you to customize everything with your own images, it's very intuitive, you just have to click and hold on the app icons and choose what you want. you can also change the size of the icons, the size of the letters, if you want applications to have names ( you can also rename them ) and you can make app folders and organize everything, you can also change the folder icons. the app drawer page ( where all of them appear ) don't have customizable icons, but you don't have to use it if you don't want to, you can just organize everything into folders on the homepage ; but important : you need to go into this app drawer area, click the settings symbol and refresh the page whenever you install any new apps or you won't be able to place the icon on your homepage ! therefore, i recommend leaving the icon of this page somewhere for easy access. so, basically touch and hold the main screen and try all the customization options you find until you're satisfied ! you can also place images floating on the screen with the photo widget ( they can have transparent background too ) tip : you will only see ads while customizing some things in the settings and sometimes on the app drawer page so it's not a bother, but ads will also appear if you leave an app folder with empty space. just fill all the folders so that doesn't happen !
it's that time of the year again .. spring time for me, autumn time for many others... this post will be more springy but the next one will be halloween themed these days has been very interesting. i'm still in the balanced mood, which is very good, but i still had some bad days ; ; i have a hard time dealing with dissociation from time to time .. for some reason i usually feel it when i see people thinking bad things of me that are not true, but it doesn't make much sense if you think about it i mean,, let whoever think whatever, right !? easier said than done.. but of course i will not give up, i will keep trying my best to just "hmpf" over people's impressions on me !! it's not worth it feeling all anxious and worried about who i am just because sometimes stereotypes are stronger than my attitudes /// i know who i am, i know i'm the best me i ever was - and becoming better - so just let people be, they don't know me well i have many projects going on now, many things to show,, but !! i'm still finishing most of these so i'm gonna show you the recently finished stuff : i have this lovely drawing i painted & edited, that turned out as a very lovely wallpaper ♡
i really really like it ♡♡ it's so so comfy too, i wish i had this quilt irl i have been experimenting with collages and image editing a lot recently, so i ended up deciding to reorganize & customize my phone ! this is how it turned out ( i'm very proud ) :
the app icons look like part of the background collage, it's so cute ♡ i made a secret folder there to put the apps i don't use a lot, not to take up unnecessary space on the main screen i can find everything easily now, i choosed all images carefully so there is actually a meaning behind all of these ! and the moomin lock screen is very cute too, don't you think ? that's about it for today.. i'm preparing some very cute stuff for the next posts so keep an eye open !! stay safe and keep doing your best always ♡♡ xoxo
finally, i got in a balanced mood while i can be productive but also rest properly this is such a relief because i've got to start and finish some personal projects, made new things for the shy bunny store + got enough sleep, chatted with friends, didn't felt super anxious.. !! i hope i can keep it like this for a long time because i'm feeling so much joy ♡ i've also become more active on my accounts, making content and being interactive ! ( careful not to get overwhelmed !! - i gotta keep reminding myself, always ) i finally started using the "close friends" function of instagram in a more organized way now : while i post self care reminders for everyone i always have some more personal stuff to share with my mutuals ( like venting or showing my self improvement ) i believe this is quite related to the acc purpose for it can motivate others to overcome their own troubles, but i'm just too shy to post it for all of my followers so i keep the public content more impersonal /// it's a little hard to be productive while respecting my schedule, but i got it pretty well these last weeks i know it's a good phase and phases come and go,, but i do feel proud of myself for having good phases just as often as the bad ones .. actually, these bad phases are not even bad, i just have a hard time accepting that i deserve ( and need ) to chill and be lazy sometimes ; ; one day, i know, i will love myself the way i deserve ♡♡ now changing subjects , after receiving many requests of mutuals, i decided to share my line acc in my links page !! i made a new one, with a very cute id ( @pomf ) and i'm happy ♡ while discord is my fav app for group chat ( because of all the features & bots ) line is actually my fav for private messages,, it's the app i use for talking with bubu and we even have matching pfp there /// as you already know i love collecting line themes, stickers & emojis.. i use this app for some years now and i really like it, so i would like to add more friends there i think discord private messages are really boring - just like line groups are boring - so for me both complement each other perfectly !! of course i use any chat in any account i have for talking with people, if they prefer like this, but i do have my own preferences .. soo, lately i've been doing a cleaning in my wardrobe, then i realized i only use 1/3 of my clothes.. most of it was basic clothes from when i was a teenager and wasn't sure of my style yet, i was keeping these there just because LOL i gave most of it to friends and my younger cousins, but some of these were actually cute and has potential !! now that i can sew, i tried renewing these and make them perfect for me again : i fixed them, added lace, ribbons & details ♡ now i have a lot of cute "new" clothes that i'm very excited to try out !!! i also have been sewing some, and bought some others from thrift stores,, so i'm completely satisfied. i never had so many cute clothing before !! i'm gonna show you one of my favorite outfits :
isn't it absolutely precious ? the little apron is just.. too cute ; ; ( i also made a "full body" apron with the same fabric and lace but it's actually for using in a practical way, not as accessory ) now, i have a collage that i made recently and wanted to show you :
it's a "fairycore" one i made for mother nature.. i love her so much this is such an inspiration for me, and i aim to be in contact with nature more and more each day ♡ i also have this melody that complements the theme :
i think it's very beautiful, i'm proud of it .. for today, that's it !! i talked a lot already so it's time to go... thank you a lot for always giving me so much love & support /// xoxo
waaa middlepot.com is now 2 years old ♡ !! and i am 22 .. this will be the year of the little swans i'm very proud of all the effort i put in this website to keep it a nice place for me and you, reading this.. i hope i can keep improving more & more, please keep supporting me /// all the love i receive will be forever cherished by me... i will never forget the messages, i will never stop trying my best to make you smile ♡♡ thank you ,, for everyting after a very energetic phase, my slow mood is back i still keep doing my tasks, but i haven't really did much extra this month ~ since august is a special month for me, i think it's a well deserved time for me to just relax, right ? but i hope i will feel motivated soon so i can keep going with my projects because i have lots of things i want to try out !! i have been sewing some things, but my big projects are staying still until i feel 100% maybe all i need is just going outside a little more making good memories with bubu is always the best way to make me super motivated ♡♡♡ so, as i said in the previous post i was trying some new embroidering techniques.. i made two very cute frames with a teddy bear and a bunny :
i really like it, i think it turned out so delicate .. ♡ what do you think of these ? have you ever seen this kind of embroidering ? i wanted them to have lots of lace, ribbons and cute details these are on my online store, so go check it out !! that's about it for today.. ! i hope you're treating yourself gently ♡ you deserve kindness, don't ever forget !! xoxo
i'm proud of myself ♡ !! i've been making a lot of progress in my projects and improving i hope i can keep this productive mood so i can be rewarded in my bday, that is coming soon ~ please don't forget to check out my online store, i need support to buy more crafting supplies ♡♡ i'm gonna add new stuff very soon, next post i'll show you the best things i made my accounts have been growing a lot lately and it makes me really happy.. i have no words to explain ; ; i love making content that make people smile, i try my best to keep my accounts helpful & safe for everyone ... i don't believe in taking numbers as a sign that i'm being sucessful, but i've been checking my followers frequently and removing all the creeps and ghosts, i want all of my followers to be real people that are truly interested in my content ! besides being only mutuals with friends, i can safely say that i really appreciate every single person that interact with my posts ♡ all of my comfy & positive content is made with my honest feelings, so yes, i am happy that my accounts are growing !! i can reach all of these lovely people with my stuff, it's surely a good thing, it's exactly the reason why i keep my accounts and don't just post everything in this website. sadly, personal websites are not that popular nowadays, so if i want to really help people in some way i need to keep some social media accounts .. tumblr is my fav place to post images in original quality ; youtube is my fav place to make playlists ; twitter is my fav place to post ascii art ; instagram is my fav place to post interactive content . i really want to post all of these things, to inspire and make people smile with these things.. ! if i can't reach many people by simply posting everything in my website, i am keeping these accounts happily until the day i feel that they're not useful anymore ♡ btw, recently i've been getting tired of my tumblr layouts, so i decided to finally make some new ones ! i'm so happy with these, it warms my heart ..
do you like it ? even if i'm not very used to make tumblr layouts, i could manage to make these work well... i kinda made a mess with the codes, i don't feel very confident to make these for other people /// but i really like making layouts outside platforms so if you want to have a cute website remember that commissions are open ♡ that's it for today, now i'm gonna embroider a little bit.. wish me luck xoxo
the shy bunny store is finally open worldwide ♡ !!! ( please check it out on shybunny.middlepot.com ) i've worked so hard for it to happen.. and it's been worth it already, i'm proud of myself ! i'm in very berry productive phase now, as expected.. i knew it i sewed a lot of stuff, made lots of cute new items for the store and i want to make even more this next month. also, i made my first clothing ♡♡ it's a lovely dress.. i also made a cute bow headdress i'll use with it !! so yes, if i use these + the frilly socks i made : it's a full outfit made 100% by myself you have no idea how much it means to me.. i'm really happy ! look at these :
it's so pretty.. /// i'm going to make more outfits soon, and as soon as i make a little more money and buy more fabric i'll surely put some clothing on the store !! ( i also want to make some cute bags ) about my instagram acc.. in addiction to my "self care calendar" idea i showed you before, i made some other templates for daily track & planning ! i want to start using these frequently now in my phone, every morning, since it's the time of the day i check my apps. i was trying to keep these things "physically" but it sadly turned out a little messy i think i'm not very good with planners, even though i love stationery stuff .. i always want to make everything to look perfect so it becomes easily stressful and time consuming /// these virtual templates will be very useful for me, so now it's not just something i do for helping others but also myself.. ! i will not post my personal lists in public since my acc is focused on self care posts only, but as always , i'll share some of these with close friends ♡ sooo.. about the q&a, i actually don't have any interesting subject to write about this time ; ; usually the requests i receive are self care related, but i will try to explain how i keep my writing organized : ♡ i write texts about specific topics on /blog ♡ i write tips about daily problems on /help ♡ i write self care reminders on my ig acc i've been receiving requests that would fit into the help page and ig acc , but not on the blog... i will surely write more q&a texts once i get an interesting topic request ! and, it doesn't have to be self care related, i write about life in general, if it's something i want to express my opinion about.. ! i hope i haven't disappointed you .. i've been posting a lot in other places so please check them out // xoxo
i think i've started existing in a new reality.. the reality where the smaller things give me energy for avoiding all bad things with a smile !!! if even a cry baby like me can feel that confident i'm sure you reading it can, too i'm currently in a lazy social phase where i want to talk with people, make friends, share memories together.. ♡ !! and, well.. i'm being really slow with my projects, but i'm trying my best to keep doing my weekly tasks anyways but of course socializing can be very stressful for me and that's why these phases just happen on internet so i can keep myself safe and cautious ! i'll share with you some things i've learned the past weeks : ⅰ. everyone deserves a chance !! even the weirdest people can turn out to be really nice, so even if someone seem weird give them a chance and be friendly ! ⅱ. in the other hand, some people who seem to be super nice can be meanies in the end of the day.. so always keep an eye open and don't go trusting people too quickly... ⅲ. manipulative people don't deserve your friendship, stay far away from people who make you feel bad for receiving attention !!! ⅳ. don't keep hate in your heart, let it go and be happy ! but never forget that bad people are bad and shouldn't be trusted. it's not your responsability to make them improve and accept them in your life, keep away and just hope for their best. mm as i said, i haven't been very good in making things lately... but i did something cute ! i colored and made some edits in this adorable drawing from paper doll mate :
i'm very very proud and i think it would be such a cute wallpaper i've been decorating my doll house, and it's becoming really cute.. ♡ i will take pics once it's finished, but it will surely take a long while, many details ; ; so.. let's go for the q&a ! this one will be about something that always make me sad so i really feel the need to talk about !!
recently people have come to consider the process of buying and selling pets something wrong and disrespectful to them, "do not buy a friend", "there are many animals for adoption" ... but what's the real point in that ? only dogs and cats can be found for adoption, and only a few specific breeds, which makes some people very angry with who prefers to buy dogs or cats of other specific breeds. "all races are valid and deserve love" .. this is true, but i can't see the point in always putting down people who wish to have a specific breed animal, it's not a matter of disliking the other breeds, just choosing one ! just like you choosed to have a bunny instead of a hamster, it doesn't mean you hate hamsters.. hmpf the reason these dogs and cats are on the streets and consequently placed for adoption is our fault, and i believe they are disrespected precisely because they are put up for adoption and not sold like any other breed. they are treated different !! people don't take care of them properly and don't care if they're having lots of babies out there. all pets are sold for a certain amount of money, not because they are objects but because they are difficult and expensive to maintain. someone had to take care of the mom who had that animal, who was cared for with affection ( and money ) to one day be put up for sale. if you don't have the money to buy a pet, you certainly do not have the money to care for one, right ? the dogs and cats on the street are exactly the ones that are put to adoption for free and easily abandoned because people do not value their lives. i don't think they should be treated differently from any other animal that is sold, they should be sold too and be cared of the same way. it is true that some animals are used for money and people abuse that, so it is important to be sure who you are buying the animal for and if the person really is trustworthy but many animals are sold for high value because they are rare breeds or very difficult to care for. so.. i don't see any problem in selling animals except when the person is bad and wants to make money from the lives of animals in a disrespectful way, and i believe that adoption is not a really good thing as it makes these animals even more devalued ;; the life of an animal is precious, and if you are not willing to pay for it you simply do not deserve to have a pet !!
i have seen many people saying that imageboards are toxic and hateful environments. i have had particularly varied experiences in such environments, not just ibs but other places that are also open to different subjects, and because these are anonymous environments, it is easy to see people saying hateful thoughts... such people may or may not have gone through difficult things in life and they feel the need to vent terrible things on the internet. i consider myself a very patient person with open environments like this, because i've already been able to talk about very interesting and fun subjects with good-hearted people in places like this. it is possible to have good experiences ! currently, i have found it VERY difficult to find good content, as these places have become the focus of hate texts. i definitely do not support or pay attention to this sort of thing, since it doesn't do any good for anyone. i used to go to these places with some frequency because it was easy to find ibs where the anonymity was absolute, that is, it was not spoken in gender or any subject that revealed particularities about the users. this avoided most of the unpleasant and problematic issues, leaving room for healthy and interesting discussions. i learned a lot and met very nice people in these spaces. unfortunately, it is a rarity now, and so i consider that the ibs are dead practically all over the world. many people say they see clear rejections in specific places against groups of people. this is real, but not just in anonymous places, i've seen it all over the internet ( and out of it too ) !! something very common to see is the classic boys x girls, right x left and other things like that ; ; if you pay attention, you will find all sorts of people rejecting and avoiding contact with other types of people, because they had bad experiences multiple times. this is basically it. i believe that any passive or aggressive rejection against people by their sex, beliefs, tastes, thoughts, is the fruit of past bad experiences. i don't like to judge people by such attitudes as long as they can be understanding, i think no one need to accept interactions with people who don't want to, i think it's important to respect environments made for a specific type of audience. i've never disrespected public rules anywhere because it seems to me too immature to force your presence into places where you're not welcome just to be "edgy" or "revolutionary" ; it's disrespectful to use personal information as an advantage in anonymous places, i don't support this. but obviously i can't stand threatenings or hate texts, as this is sick and negative, i don't like any toxic environment ! i really value respect among people and believe that anonymity should serve to make people "impartial" and away from judgments, to say what they really think, so that it can be productive for the personal development of everyone. it is possible to exchange good arguments and spend good moments of entertainment and learning with people if they respect each other and don't judge for personal details. i believe that anonymity makes environments nicer for complicated topics, an environment becomes pure from the moment people don't have personal information about each other. please don't be hateful, please don't be mean !! it's hard to deal with differences, but people are not supposed to hate each other. everyone is different and have problems, and that's okay. you don't have to interact with people you don't like, but it's not right to write hate texts ; ; so i support anonymous discussion environments, and the respect. my good experiences were much more relevant than the bad ones, although i had a hard time finding interesting subjects on the internet, i know it's possible ! unfortunately the ibs have become a very dirty place in recent years, frequented by frustrated teenagers who want to feel special and part of some sort of "secret movement" that rules the world through memes... seriously. although i believe myself in the power of memes and the internet, using it to feel better than others is pathetic. and, fortunately, i still know other places on the internet that are good for that kind of healthy interaction that i quoted above ♡ ! there are not many, but i really like them. things really are temporary, so it's not healthy to keep complaining, right ? by the way i really don't care about the reputation of the places on the internet, to be honest, so i'm always open to experiencing things before judging them by the contents that spread out there. for example, tumblr has a very dubious and embarrassing reputation, but i have used it for many years and absolutely love the beautiful and interesting content that i find exclusively there. people simply should try before saying anything.