merry xmas !!! please be kinder to yourself this next year ..
it has been a busy but very good month so far !
i got a lot of work, specially since i officially opened commissions for blogger and tumblr layouts.. it's really good since december is a month spending can go a little bit wild sometimes ( i'm trying my best to save money though /// )

talking on tumblr,, i made the hard decision of getting rid of my graphics blog since it wasn't really being useful .. i wasn't paying much attention to it recently, and i don't intend to continue. this blog didn't have much original content anyway, so i want to focus on my aesthetic blog and my other accounts that matter most to me !
i made a small change in my social media by choosing a new user that could be original and available for using in all of them : @pooftie
now my 4 accounts have the same user, which makes it way easier to find me and keep everything organized 🎀
as you may already know, pooftie is how i call all the critters that i've created for my "poofties" project ! it's a very special word for me ♡♡

changing subjects, i decided to make my own virtue chart based on personal goals and some research i did recently .. it was hard finding the proper words but i believe it turned out okay
virtue charts can be really useful for valuating your self improvement process making sure you're going through the right path, because going too far will end up hurting yourself and/or other people !

i hope it can help you understand more about your feelings, natural tendencies, what you aim for & traits that could be improved in a healthy way ♡
while i was writing it i realized that some things i was forcing myself into were actually being harmful to my mental health for i was taking it too far.. if you tend to be harsh on yourself and feel overwhelmed, please be careful ☂️

i'm so excited for this next year, very good life changes will happen and i'll keep trying my best...
please do your best too, and don't forget the xmas spirit !! let's make good memories and forget about the problems
i will have a very special xmas with only bubu for the first time .. we'll cook together and have purely comfy time ♡♡♡

this month .. i worked a whole lot but i somehow managed to rest a lot more than i usually do
i had some very energetic moments, extremely sleepy moments, talkative moments and completely quiet moments !!
it was a mess and i'm tired, but at least i did things i'm very proud of that i want to show you today ♡
i hope my emotions will get together this new month so i can feel less anxious. when i'm all over the place like this i always get confused at some point, act out of myself, feel dissociated and get embarrassed ///
but everything is okay, after all, it's natural to have different moods and i'm always doing my best and learning from any mistakes ( even the smallest ones )
i will make sure to be patient..
i have to put myself first if i want to be happy, being a caring person includes caring about my own well-being and validating my efforts !!
i know that forcing myself to socialize is big part of my anxiety so i will keep cautious not to overdo it and stay in a safe place.
i can and will make people smile within my capacity, fill my life with good experiences while respecting my limits. 🧁
also, a little reminder for me and anyone reading this : be yourself. self improvement is not about trying to fit in. it doesn't matter if someone would like you more if you acted like this or that, it doesn't matter if someone thinks you're weird, it doesn't matter. stay pure and be proud of who you are. don't try to get included, don't base your growth on what others see, it's not worth it.
focusing on my improvement, creating content i feel truly proud of and decentralizing the attention of my ego is what i long for !! enough of pain for not being perfect for others, i will perfect myself.. for myself ♡
i love helping, i want to inspire and be inspired. i must keep myself pure if i want to heal. only a heart full of love can spread kindness !

let's go for the content !! this month i made some really cute things, i'm excited to show you ♡
first, my secret project from poofties, finally started :

these will be a series of 1min videos with this *big* story i have in mind for.. some years now
everything made with collages of real life things, except for the characters !!
i think it looks really cute, it takes a long while to search, edit and put everything together but i had a lot of fun 🌷
the "voice acting" is absolutely amateur ( and a little embarrassing ) but i'm okay with this.. what can i do ? LOL
please let me know your opinions, i'm not used to video editing and some things ( specially the audio ) can be a little off so i would really appreciate the opinion of someone more experienced

all the melodies used will be composed by me ( i've already started with the next one actually )
this is the one i've used in this episode :

a lively and adorable midi, i'm happy with it 🐇
not the most creative melody because i wanted these to be simple and not distracting, so expect to hear some loops !

the next thing i'm showing today is a simple but lovely idea a friend gave me : collage wallpapers with self care reminders !

as you already know, i love making collages, it's really relaxing for me so i will certainly make some more of these in the near future.. !
it's always nice to practice making visuals with different aesthetics, right ?

i hope you, lovely reader, is taking good care of yourself ♡♡
the year is almost finished .. let's fill our hearts with hope for new experiences

xoxo 💕

happy halloween !!
are you excited ? i'm going to eat lots of candy with bubuuuu ♡
it's time to listen to halloween music : "dancing christmas in the 13th month" from ragnarok online & "haunted disco" from club penguin are my classic choices LOL
for some reason the climate decided to get cold, maybe to put me into the autumn mood and feel happier !? i even got flu but i'm happy, i hope it stays like this until halloween 🧇

i'm very motivated lately and doing lots of things !!
i have some projects going on lately but first i will keep the tradition of posting a flash game.
every october i've been making a flash game, but for next year i'm thinking of something new ... i actually wanted to make my games work on mobile, and of course i would need to remake them into html5, and i am really not into javascript so it would be a nightmare for me ; ;
i'll test some things and see how it turns out, bubu really likes coding so he can help me with the process.. i hope i can remake them all little by little, let's see !
for now, if you haven't seen it yet, here is the recent game i made :

click to play it ( if you're on pc ) !!
it took me a while to draw everything but it turned out so cute, i'm very proud ///
and this is the melody i made for it :

i think it sounds very gentle.. ♡


now !! i have a q&a text for today, that is a tutorial for phone customization people have been requesting since last post ♡
it will not be a long tutorial with pictures and everything since it's actually quite an easy app to use !

first of all, you need to install this app called +home , for android !
this is a themes app where you can download icons, backgrounds and stuff .. however you don't have to download any of that ! i've already downloaded themes to use icons and some widgets but currently i just use the default app theme ( which will replace your main screen ).
what i do is change the background and icons for png images with transparent background i have in the gallery, and this is the biggest secret : this app is the best i know for customization because it allows you to customize everything with your own images, it's very intuitive, you just have to click and hold on the app icons and choose what you want.
you can also change the size of the icons, the size of the letters, if you want applications to have names ( you can also rename them ) and you can make app folders and organize everything, you can also change the folder icons.
the app drawer page ( where all of them appear ) don't have customizable icons, but you don't have to use it if you don't want to, you can just organize everything into folders on the homepage ; but important : you need to go into this app drawer area, click the settings symbol and refresh the page whenever you install any new apps or you won't be able to place the icon on your homepage ! therefore, i recommend leaving the icon of this page somewhere for easy access.
so, basically touch and hold the main screen and try all the customization options you find until you're satisfied ! you can also place images floating on the screen with the photo widget ( they can have transparent background too )
tip : you will only see ads while customizing some things in the settings and sometimes on the app drawer page so it's not a bother, but ads will also appear if you leave an app folder with empty space. just fill all the folders so that doesn't happen !

it's that time of the year again .. spring time for me, autumn time for many others...
this post will be more springy but the next one will be halloween themed 🌷

these days has been very interesting. i'm still in the balanced mood, which is very good, but i still had some bad days ; ;
i have a hard time dealing with dissociation from time to time .. for some reason
i usually feel it when i see people thinking bad things of me that are not true, but it doesn't make much sense if you think about it 🌧
i mean,, let whoever think whatever, right !?
easier said than done.. but of course i will not give up, i will keep trying my best to just "hmpf" over people's impressions on me !!
it's not worth it feeling all anxious and worried about who i am just because sometimes stereotypes are stronger than my attitudes ///
i know who i am, i know i'm the best me i ever was - and becoming better - so just let people be, they don't know me 🌱

well i have many projects going on now, many things to show,, but !! i'm still finishing most of these so i'm gonna show you the recently finished stuff :
i have this lovely drawing i painted & edited, that turned out as a very lovely wallpaper ♡

i really really like it ♡♡
it's so so comfy too, i wish i had this quilt irl 🛏

i have been experimenting with collages and image editing a lot recently, so i ended up deciding to reorganize & customize my phone !
this is how it turned out ( i'm very proud ) :

the app icons look like part of the background collage, it's so cute ♡
i made a secret folder there to put the apps i don't use a lot, not to take up unnecessary space on the main screen
i can find everything easily now, i choosed all images carefully so there is actually a meaning behind all of these !
and the moomin lock screen is very cute too, don't you think ?

that's about it for today.. i'm preparing some very cute stuff for the next posts so keep an eye open !!
stay safe and keep doing your best always ♡♡

xoxo 💝

finally, i got in a balanced mood while i can be productive but also rest 🐝
this is such a relief because i've got to start and finish some personal projects, made new things for the shy bunny store + got enough sleep, chatted with friends, didn't felt super anxious.. !!
i hope i can keep it like this for a long time because i'm feeling so much joy ♡

it's a little hard to be productive while respecting my schedule, but i got it pretty well these last weeks 🐌
i know it's a good phase and phases come and go,, but i do feel proud of myself for having good phases just as often as the bad ones .. actually, these bad phases are not even bad, i just have a hard time accepting that i deserve ( and need ) to chill and be lazy sometimes ; ;
one day, i know, i will love myself the way i deserve ♡♡

now changing subjects , after receiving many requests of mutuals, i decided to share my line acc in my links page !!
i made a new one, with a cute id ( pooftie ) and i'm happy ♡
while discord is currently my fav app for group chat ( because of all the features & bots ) line is my fav for private messages,, it's the app i use most for talking with bubu !
as you already know i love collecting stickers & emojis.. and line has ways of doing so while supporting artists !
for me using discord & line as chat apps is the way to go, until i find somewhere better ( or make it myself, who knows )
my real preference though is exchanging emails, or as i like to call them, virtual letters 💟


soo, lately i've been doing a cleaning in my wardrobe, then i realized i only use 1/3 of my clothes..
most of it was basic clothes from when i was a teenager and wasn't sure of my style yet, i was keeping these there just because LOL
i gave most of it to friends and my younger cousins, but some of these were actually cute and has potential !!
now that i can sew, i tried renewing these and make them perfect for me again : i fixed them, added lace, ribbons & details ♡
now i have a lot of cute "new" clothes that i'm very excited to try out !!!
i also have been sewing some, and bought some others from thrift stores,, so i'm completely satisfied.
i never had so many cute clothing before !!
i'm gonna show you one of my favorite outfits :

isn't it absolutely precious ? 
the little apron is just.. too cute ; ;
( i also made a "full body" apron with the same fabric and lace but it's actually for using in a practical way, not as accessory )

now, i have a collage that i made recently and wanted to show you :

it's a "fairycore" one i made for mother nature.. i love her so much 🍄
this is such an inspiration for me, and i aim to be in contact with nature more and more each day ♡
i also have this melody that complements the theme :

i think it's very beautiful, i'm proud of it ..

for today, that's it !! i talked a lot already so it's time to go...
thank you a lot for always giving me so much love & support ///

xoxo 🌱

waaa middlepot.com is now 2 years old ♡ !!
and i am 22 .. this will be the year of the little swans 💘
i'm very proud of all the effort i put in this website to keep it a nice place for me and you, reading this..
i hope i can keep improving more & more, please keep supporting me ///
all the love i receive will be forever cherished by me... i will never forget the messages, i will never stop trying my best to make you smile ♡♡
thank you ,, for everyting ❤️

after a very energetic phase, my slow mood is back 🐌
i still keep doing my tasks, but i haven't really did much extra this month ~
since august is a special month for me, i think it's a well deserved time for me to just relax, right ?
but i hope i will feel motivated soon so i can keep going with my projects because i have lots of things i want to try out !!
i have been sewing some things, but my big projects are staying still until i feel 100%
maybe all i need is just going outside a little more 🚲
making good memories with bubu is always the best way to make me super motivated ♡♡♡

so, as i said in the previous post i was trying some new embroidering techniques..
i made two very cute frames with a teddy bear and a bunny :

i really like it, i think it turned out so delicate .. ♡
what do you think of these ? have you ever seen this kind of embroidering ?
i wanted them to have lots of lace, ribbons and cute details
these are on my online store, so go check it out !!

that's about it for today.. !
i hope you're treating yourself gently ♡
you deserve kindness, don't ever forget !!

xoxo 🍪

i'm proud of myself ♡ !!
i've been making a lot of progress in my projects and improving ..
i hope i can keep this productive mood so i can be rewarded in my bday, that is coming soon ~ 
please don't forget to check out my online store, i need support to buy more crafting supplies ♡♡
i'm gonna add new stuff very soon !
next post i'll show you the best things i made 🫖

my accounts have been growing a lot lately and it makes me really happy.. i have no words to explain ; ;
i love making content that make people smile, i try my best to keep my accounts helpful & safe for everyone ...
i don't believe in taking numbers as a sign that i'm being sucessful, but i've been checking my followers frequently and removing all the creeps and ghosts, i want all of my followers to be real people that are truly interested in my content !
besides being only mutuals with friends, i can safely say that i really appreciate every single person that interact with my posts ♡
all of my comfy & positive content is made with my honest feelings, so yes, i am happy that my accounts are growing !!
i can reach all of these lovely people with my stuff, it's surely a good thing, it's exactly the reason why i keep my accounts and don't just post everything in this website.
sadly, personal websites are not that popular nowadays, so if i want to really help people in some way i need to keep some social media accounts ..
tumblr is my fav place to post photos ; youtube is my fav place to make playlists ; twitter is my fav place to post ascii art ; instagram is my fav place to post interactive self care content .
i really want to post all of these things, to inspire and make people smile with these things.. !
if i can't reach many people by simply posting everything in my website, i am keeping these accounts happily,
until the day i feel that they're not useful anymore ♡

btw, recently i've been getting tired of my tumblr layout, so i decided to finally make a new one !
i'm so happy, it warms my heart ..

do you like it ? 💗
even if i'm not very used to make tumblr layouts, i could manage to make it work well ///
if you want to have a cute website remember that commissions are open ♡

that's it for today, now i'm gonna embroider a little bit.. wish me luck !

xoxo 💐

the shy bunny store is finally open worldwide ♡ !!!
( please check it out on shybunny.store )
i've worked so hard for it to happen.. and it's been worth it already, i'm proud of myself !
i'm in very berry productive phase now, as expected.. i knew it 🍮
i sewed a lot of stuff, made lots of cute new items for the store and i want to make even more this next month.
also, i made my first clothing ♡♡
it's a lovely dress.. i also made a cute bow headdress i'll use with it !!
so yes, if i use these + the frilly socks i made : it's a full outfit made 100% by myself
you have no idea how much it means to me.. i'm really happy !
look at these :

it's simple, but so pretty.. ///
i'm going to make more outfits soon, and as soon as i make a little more money and buy more fabric i'll surely put some clothing on the store !!
( i also want to make some cute purses )

about my instagram acc.. in addiction to my "self care calendar" idea i showed you before, i made some other templates for daily track & planning !
i want to start using these templates frequently now, every morning !
i think i'm not very good with physical planners, even though i love stationery stuff .. i always want to make everything to look perfect so it becomes easily stressful and time consuming 🌧
so virtual templates are very useful for me, it's not just something i do for helping others but also myself.. !

let me show you some of my favorite templates :

what do you think ?
i always hope that my content can help making your day nicer, even if a little bit !

xoxo 💖

i think i've started existing in a new reality..
the reality where the smaller things give me energy for avoiding all bad things with a smile !!!
if even a cry baby like me can feel that confident,
i'm sure you reading it can, too 🐑

i'm currently in a lazy social phase where i want to talk with people, make friends, share memories together.. ♡ !!
and, well.. i'm being really slow with my projects, but i'm trying my best to keep doing my weekly tasks anyways 🎗
but of course socializing can be very stressful for me and that's why these phases just happen on internet so i can keep myself safe and cautious !
i'll share with you some things i've learned the past weeks :

ⅰ.　everyone deserves a chance !! even the weirdest people can turn out to be really nice, so even if someone seem weird give them a chance and be friendly !
ⅱ.　in the other hand, some people who seem to be super nice can be meanies in the end of the day.. so always keep an eye open and don't go trusting people too quickly...
ⅲ.　manipulative people don't deserve your friendship, stay far away from people who make you feel bad for receiving attention !!!
ⅳ.　don't keep hate in your heart, let it go and be happy ! but never forget that bad people are bad and shouldn't be trusted. it's not your responsability to make them improve and accept them in your life, keep away and just hope for their best.

mm as i said, i haven't been very good in making things lately... but i did something cute !
i colored and made some edits in this adorable drawing from paper doll mate :

i'm very very proud and i think it would be such a cute wallpaper 📱

i've been decorating my doll house, and it's becoming really cute.. ♡
i will take pics once it's finished, but it will surely take a long while, many details ; ;

so.. that's it for today. i will be back soon !

i have seen many people saying that imageboards are toxic and hateful environments. i have had particularly varied experiences in such environments, not just ibs but other places that are also open to different subjects, and because these are anonymous environments, it is easy to see people saying hateful thoughts..
such people may or may not have gone through difficult things in life and they feel the need to vent terrible things on the internet. i consider myself a very patient person with open environments like this, because i've already been able to talk about very interesting and fun subjects with good-hearted people in places like this. it is possible to have good experiences !
currently, i have found it very difficult to find good content on the more popular imageboards, as these places have become quite the focus of hate texts, once they gain popularity among extremist movements. i definitely do not support or pay attention to this sort of thing, since it doesn't do any good for anyone.
but i will be honest with you : i feel safer seeing random hate speech on anonymous forums than on social media. that's because on an anonymous place you know that people are being honest and silly without thinking much, while when people are straightforward being hateful on an open, public website, using their real life names and all that ... isn't that super scary ??
i mean, it just shows that some groups of people aren't, at all, afraid or ashamed to say such things for everyone to see, but even worse, trying to get reputation on that. trying to get LIKES over hate speech. it makes me sick !
( yes, sometimes it's just edgy behavior, but sometimes it isn't, and it's hard to tell.. )

i used to go to these places with some frequency because it was easy to find ibs where the anonymity was absolute, that is, it was not spoken in gender or any subject that revealed particularities about the users. this avoided most of the unpleasant and problematic issues, leaving room for healthy and interesting discussions. i learned a lot and met very nice people in these spaces.
i still really like to visit ibs, but unfortunately, it's a bit hard to find ibs that are full 100% anonymous nowadays. more often you will find places where you must be of a specific gender, and i find that a bit silly sometimes ( though i do appreciate safe female spaces ) .
many people say there are rejections in specific places against groups of people as well. this is real, but not just in anonymous places, i've seen it all over the internet ( and out of it too ) !!
if you pay close attention, you will find all sorts of people rejecting and avoiding contact with other types of people, because they had bad experiences multiple times. that's basically it.
i believe that any passive or aggressive rejection against people by their sєx, age, beliefs, tastes, thoughts, is the fruit of past bad experiences. i don't like to judge people by such attitudes as long as they can be understanding, i think no one need to accept interactions with people who don't want to, i think it's important to respect environments made for a specific type of audience. i've never disrespected public rules anywhere because it seems to me too immature to force your presence into places where you're not welcome just to be "edgy" or "revolutionary" ; it's disrespectful to use personal information as an advantage in anonymous places, i don't support this. but obviously i can't stand threatenings or hate texts, as this is sick and negative !
i really value respect among people and believe that anonymity should serve to make people "impartial" and away from judgments, to say what they really think, so that it can be productive for the personal development of everyone. it is possible to exchange good arguments and spend good moments of entertainment and learning with people if they respect each other and don't judge for personal details. i believe that anonymity makes environments nicer for complicated topics, an environment becomes pure from the moment people don't have personal information about each other.
please don't be hateful, please don't be mean !! it's hard to deal with differences, but people are not supposed to hate each other. everyone is different and have problems, and that's okay. you don't have to interact with people you don't like, but it's not right to write hate texts ; ;

i support anonymous discussion environments, and respect above all. my good experiences were much more relevant than the bad ones, although i have a hard time finding comfortable places on internet as a whole, i know it's possible !
unfortunately ibs can be, indeed, very dirty places, frequented by frustrated teenagers who want to feel special and part of some sort of "secret movement" that rules the world through memes.. seriously. although i believe myself in "the power of the internet", using it to feel better than others is pathetic.

fortunately, i still know places on the internet that are good for healthy anonymous interaction ♡
there are not many, but i really really like them, even when not perfect. things are temporary, so it's not smart to waste time complaining, right ?